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But I believe I may have met my match.

Allow me to explain. If you can't handle TL;DR then go away.

For a very long time, my best friends were my husband's ex-girlfriend and another guy who my husband had known since they were in college. Weird, I get it.

In 2007 to make a very long drawn out plotless story short, this woman essentially ruined my life. I lost most of my friends, what friends have stayed with me have grown distant, and ...

It was such a bad idea for our group to have an event this weekend. Nothing is done, we don't have a schedule, the only thing we KNOW is going to happen correctly is the food.

It's completely ridiculous. Our Autocrat hasn't been to a meeting in several months, and once again, the rest of the group is stuck doing an event that this other guy wants to do but he never shows up to anything.

We don't have an alcohol contract signed. On top of all of this, one of the biggest ...

I'm never going to get elevated. No "Mistress" title in my future. Makes me wonder why I keep trying. I can't play this game the way people want me to, so why do I bother.

11 years ago, this was fun. The possibilities were endless. It's still fun, but when your goals are unobtainable, what difference does it make?

Nothing to do. Can't go do the test cook for our Event next weekend because I can't be around a baby due to shingles, don't really have any motivation to do anything.

Cats won't leave me alone...

dunno...what do I do?

This is rather bizarre. A couple days ago, I noticed a rash on the left side of my neck. I thought perhaps my cat had scratched me or something and it was an allergic reaction. Well, it's gotten bigger and now all the lymph nodes on that side of my jaw are hard as rocks. I'm beginning to run a slight fever.

Perhaps the ER? Or wait and see if it goes away on it's own? I loathe going to the doctor.