kurona

To the delight of possibly some people here who've been under the belief that I abuse my bf maybe, guess what yeah he left for another woman I think or maybe ran off to his friends I dont know. Who's fault it is? Whenever I break up with someone, there is no one else to blame but me, if he had a reason to stay he would - and I just didnt give him that reason, so its me. Am I sad, yeah I am of course I'm hurt immensely. But life goes on, I have to move on.

Me now, with this freedom I started to pursue women, all out no hesitations anymore.

Yesterday, I spent the night with an amazing one. She's fn hot and equally smart. She's a little arrogant and abrassive though but its concrete and justified arrogance. She's just a lot of fun to be with. I hope we can go out a lot more. And we both pursue the same thing too, serious long term. Shes not perfect and I can definitely see her flaws or problem potentials, but she makes me smile and no one is perfect. I guess we'll see if we can really get along well.

I will admit... ehm..... its different... that I had to give her a massage when its usually me making men give me a massage... I guess I need to get used to not being pampered anymore >_>